I guess one regret I have in my life is having my kids with men that have turned out to be total jerks and not giving them the best dad they could have! I was raised by my mom and dad...they have been married for almost 39 years, so I wanted that for my kids, but it just didn't happen that way for me or my kids. I really tried to make it work with my son's dad. I put up with so much stuff from him because I wanted my son to be raised by both of us, but it got to the point that I knew that no matter what I did that was never going to happen. I feel like I let my son down...like he deserved more than that! My daughter's father is just a total different story. I knew from the beginning that things would never be that way with him...in that way I feel even worse for my daughter. She never had the chance to have a great father!! He left me when I was pregnant and never really looked back...I mean he tried at times to be in her life, but mainly to "show her off" to his then girlfriends. If it wasn't for some women in his life he probably would have never seen his daughter after she was a year old! I hope that I have done what is best for my kids, by not leaving them in a home where there was no happiness even though the lost being raised in a home with both parents!!
I'm hoping that the relationship I am in now proves to be that for my kids...a home where there is happiness and a mother and father trying to raise 4 kids together!!!! We'll see what the future holds!!!
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