Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for

I guess my answer for this is Brett...I have to forgive my son's father.  I have let what he did to me impair my life more times than I would like to say.  I was with him for 5 years total, but about 4 of those years were spent cheating and lying.  The first year of our relationship was great...the best I had ever had up to that point then I found out he was cheating on me when I was pregnant with Nikolas.  Of course I forgave him and let him come back.  Things were good for about another year, then the cheating started again.  It was so bad at times that he would say...I'll be right back, I'm gonna take out the garbage...and not come back for days!  We went through this for about 3 years until I finally had enough and let him go.  I have to forgive him for the things he did to me or I don't think I will ever have a successful relationship because I always think the other man is going to cheat on me like he did.  I guess I have come to realize that Brett is just that way...that is the way he thinks life should be since I have seen how he has done this to EVERY woman he has been with since me.  I have to realize that it wasn't me that was doing anything wrong...it was him!!  That is a hard thing for me because I try everything I can in a relationship and this made me feel like I failed, but I have to wrap my head around the fact that it was him that failed, not me!!!